PERSONAL UPDATE
Is anyone here?
Showing posts with label My Emotions (Loneliness). Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Emotions (Loneliness). Show all posts
Give Your Tears To The Tide
Can anyone hear me or am I here all alone?
Send your dreams
Where nobody hides
Give your tears
To the tide
No time
No time
There's no end
There is no goodbye
Disappear with the night
No time
No time
No time
No time
No time
The Winner Takes It All
SONG OF THE DAY
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Don't want to talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play
The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
I don't want to talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all
So the winner takes it all
And the loser has to fall
Throw a dice, cold as ice
Way down here, someone dear
Takes it all, has to fall
It seems plain to me...
-lyrics
Credits On Me
Just Hang On
PERSONAL UPDATE
[Instrumental break]
The sun has left and forgotten me
It's dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour down
I'm gonna drown
In a sea
Of deep confusion
Somebody told me, I don't know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you're feelin' all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you'll find
You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when it's dark
And not a bit of spark
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love
Just hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you'll be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Something's coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead
And so I hold on to his advice
When change is hard and not so nice
You listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you.
Disarm You With A Smile
SONG OF THE DAY
Hello Beautiful World!
Today I woke up to the sound of the rain.
I ran outside without thinking about it and looking up at the sky, I closed my eyes and enjoyed
the soft warm rain falling on my face and pampering my whole body. It felt good.
Yet, for some reason, I felt sadness and loneliness... doesn't matter.
In my loneliness is when I can truly listen to my heart, why is it beating so fast?... why is it beating so slow?
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Today I visited a beautiful sim that felt perfect for today's song
Welcome, this is
(Moderate)
Description:
Based on Jane Austen's Pride & Prejudice, sim designer and co-owner Aria Christen has created
our dream of a Pemberley, as one may consider it looks like today; yet it still embodies
all the quaint charm of Austen’s 1813 novel.
(Flickr)
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Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn
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I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
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Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you...
Credits On Me
Rise Into Love And To Light
Featuring
:: PM ::
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"Be at peace
no matter what is going on around you,
be at peace and rise.
Rise into love and to light
rise into the knowing of who you are."
-Mei-Lan
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Hello Beautiful World!
Often I tend to feel so small
trying to survive in a world of giants.
I have become shy and quiet.
I find myself feeling very shy anytime someone says hello.
I get so nervous that I don't know what to say.
I am not at all the girl I used to be.
So I have created my own mental world.
A world where not many get to get in.
A world where I walk alone.
A world where I pretend to be invisible
and I can walk
and dance
and sing
and write
and...
and no one is watching
or listening
or reading...
and this gives me the freedom
to be me
the NEW me
quiet
and shy
and a loner
but at peace
at peace with myself and the world that surrounds me.
-Lori Novo
❤
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Angelic - "Avery" Hairbase EVOX
The Moon Lotus Big Lashes Lelutka Evo x
theROOM - Dahlia Eyeliner
Jeana Necklace (Gold) ~ ISON
Zaara : Varsha jhumka Earrings
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Model & Photographer: Lori Novo
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She's Not There
PHOTO SPOTS
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"Please don't bother tryin' to find her
She's not there...
Well, let me tell you 'bout the way she looked
The way she'd act and the colour of her hair
Her voice was soft and cool
Her eyes were clear and bright
But she's not there..."
-lyrics
Hello Beautiful World!
Still waiting for my Steppenwolf to return from his trip. Missing him tons and tons though I am glad
he's taking this time to be with his brothers. Hopefully, he'll give me permission to share with you the
reason why this trip was very necessary.
Without my Steppenwolf, I feel like a lonely, lost soul in both real life and Second Life.
The way to keep my mind distracted is of course my blog. Today I decided to revisit one very
beautiful spot that I saw a while back during my weekend shopping outings.
Welcome to the flagship locations of roslyn. and rue!
Both stores are black-owned and curate simple and chic clothing, decor, and accessories.
MyStory compatible. Clothing compatible with Kupra, Khara, Legacy, Maitreya, Peach, and Reborn!
-source: Sim Description
So many beautiful spots that can be found in the least expected places, I tell you.
Perfect for all your photography needs.
By the way, my dress for this post is one of the many great gifts I collected for free at the Scoop N Score,
SLS HG Interactive Maze Hunt the other day (HERE) that will be ending May 31st.
It is the ::WD:: Dress Willa by Web Dew, absolutely beautiful!
The dress is strapless but I combined it with a short, light jacket by Dymom Designs.
Now, the song I used on this occasion for this post is one I wasn't familiar with but heard recently on
HBOMax in the 2016 film Wolves At The Door, starring Katie Cassidy, Elizabeth Henstridge, Adam
Campbell, and Miles Fisher.
By the way, doesn't Miles Fisher look so much like Tom Cruise? (HERE)
Now going back to the song.
She's Not There, by British The Zombies, rock band, placed 2nd back in 1964 on the USA's
Billboard Hot 100. I usually look for covers for songs I like but this time I wasn't able to find any that
I liked better than the original. In my search though I found a video of The Zombie's live performance
at the Mellow Johnny's Bike Shop in Austin, TX during SXSW 2013. (HERE)
Recorded March 16th, 2013, WOW! ❤
Lunchtime for me my beautiful people.
Keep smiling, even in the storm. ;)
Much love,
-Lori Novo
Other Credits On Me
Memories by Cica Ghost
EXPLORING SECOND LIFE
Here I am again, sitting alone, on a table set for one.
My table may appear empty but I have been served a bowl full of beautiful memories.
As I contemplate the horizon before me, one by one, the beautiful faces, the beautiful smiles,
and the beautiful words of those many people that once beautified my life with their presence
and their love, become present to me at this very moment.
Bitter-sweet spoonfuls I take, stirring in me laughter and tears. Why wouldn't tears be part of the
ingredients which my memory bowl has been served with?
Aren't tears an essential part of life?...
♫
"Midnight, not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight, the withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan
Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can dream of the old days
Life was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again..."
♫
It wasn't too long ago when we used to smile together.
When you held my hand and I held yours.
When we looked into each other eyes
and shared our happiness and our sadness.
It wasn't too long ago when we walked together
and dreamt of similar dreams.
When we were so thankful to be part of each other's lives,
when I called you my friend
as you called me yours...
♫
"Every street lamp seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters and the street lamp sputters
And soon it will be morning
Daylight, I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes, tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin..."
♫
Now, my journey continues taking my present and my future steps alone.
You are no longer in my life. One day, you simply opened your wings and flew to different skies.
We no longer shared the same dreams. We no longer call each other "my friend"...
Dedicated with all my heart to all my long-gone friends.
♫
"Burnt-out ends of smoky days
The stale, cold smell of morning
A street lamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning
Touch me, it's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is
Look, a new day has begun..."
♫
Today I woke up not feeling like much. I just wanted to stay in bed and shelter my emotions
under the warmth of my covers. I have been doing that for the four past days.
I just don't feel the strength to get up and go on with my day. But I push myself to do it,
and so I do. But honestly, I would rather stay in the safety of my warm covers where I feel that
nothing can touch me. Now, you may not know this but I am not always crying under those blankets.
Many, many times I am smiling.
I find such sweet comfort and warmth there just like my mother's hug used to feel.
Today, after having to push myself time after time to do life, I decided to visit Cica Ghost's
sim Memories by Cica Ghost (Moderate). I was there for a good long time but could only come up
with these three pictures (sorry inspiration for not feeling you today).
Cica's new sim is as always, beautiful like many of her past sims that have been created very simple.
And as I always say, there is so much beauty in simplicity.
I am actually a bit upset that today my mood couldn't give the deserved justice to Cica Ghost's talent.
I owe her one for sure.
Maybe next time, when I wake up not feeling the need to stay under my warm blankets.
''Not every day is good but there is something good in every day.''
-Alice Morse Earle
And while I push myself through these days, I keep finding things that make me smile
because after all, life is beautiful... even on my hardest days.
-Lori Novo
♥
Credits On Me
Exile - Marina Hair ● Be.Raon // Anya Hairbase (EvoX) ● -Pixicat- Blush.Dress - FlowerLight
friday - Helio Sandals (Desert)
I Can Feel You're There
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I close my eyes
And I'm seeing you everywhere
I step outside
It's like I'm breathing you in the air
I can feel you're there
Fall on me
With open arms
Fall on me
From where you are
Fall on me
With all your light
With all your light
With all your light
With all your light...
-lyrics
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Hello Beautiful World!
I want to dedicate this blog post to my mother who passed away almost six years ago.
My mother's memory lives in me every single minute of every single day.
Her smile and her eyes are always present every time I close my eyes.
Though I dreamt about her often in the past, now it is more often than before.
Last night I had a dream about her...
I was sitting on her favorite chair and I was looking out the window.
The trees were moving with the wind and the birds were singing. It was a beautiful sunny day.
Suddenly, I realized that I had not heard from my mother in two weeks. No phone calls, nothing.
I tried calling her but there was no answer. I kept trying repeatedly without any success.
So then I decided to call my brother and asked him if he had talked to her.
But as I am dialing his number I remembered that my mother had already passed away
and I began to cry.
I was so sad like you have no idea. My heart was breaking and I couldn't stop crying.
I remain sitting on her chair as I cried. I felt such pain and such sadness.
The day then joined me in my sadness. No longer was the sun shining or the birds singing.
No longer were the trees dancing with the wind. Everything around me turned into sadness.
Then I woke up. I sat on my bed for I don't know how long as my tears kept falling down.
It is a cruel daily realization to know that my mother is gone.
I haven't come to accept it after all these years and I know I should.
Maybe one day I will. Maybe I'll never will.
Today I was going to share with you my dream in the earlier blog post Just Like A Dragonfly.
But as I began to write it I felt that I should make a special post just for my mother, so I changed
the direction of its content. But I didn't want the day to end without writing down my dream because
no matter if they were happy or sad dreams about my mother, I cherish them just the same.
In my dreams, I get to feel her embrace and see her beautiful smile. I get to look into her eyes and see
her love for me. And if the dreams are sad, I get to shed my tears for her, one by one letting her know
how much I love her and miss her.
Thanks for reading my beautiful people!
Much Love,
Lori Novo
❤
Credits On Me
DOUX - Circe Hairstyle ● *COCO*_MidiSlipDress_White ● KUNGLERS - Gaia bracelet ● MICHAN - Sunny Anklets - Light
Location: Salt Water ~ Salt (Adult)
Every Story Must Grow Old
PERSONAL UPDATE
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This song is dedicated to all those wonderful people that I had the honor
to call them friends at one point in my life...
God bless them all.
❤
Black flies on the windowsill
That we are, that we are, that we are to know
Winter stole summer's thrill
And the river's cracked and cold
See, the sky is no man's land
A darkened plume to stay
Hope here needs a humble hand
Not a fox found in your place
No man is an island
Oh, this I know
But can't you see, oh?
Or maybe you were the ocean
When I was just a stone
Black flies on the windowsill
That we are, that we are, that we are to hold
Comfort came against my will
And every story must grow old
Still I'll be a traveller
A gypsy's reins to face
But the road is wearier
With that fool found in your place
No man is an island
Oh, this I know
But can't you see, oh?
Or maybe you were the ocean
When I was just a stone
No man is an island
Oh, this I know
But can't you see, oh?
Or maybe you were the ocean
When I was just a stone
So here we are
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
And I don't wanna beg your pardon
And I don't wanna ask you why
But if I was to go my own way
Would I have to pass you by?
And I don't wanna beg your pardon
And I don't wanna ask you why
But if I was to go my own way
Would I have to pass you by?
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
My Location: Radio Ocho Tango Place (Moderate)
Welcome To The Final Show
PERSONAL UPDATE
And "we never learn" and we just feel like "we got to get away from here"...
Anyways, just a song that touches deep inside.
"Just stop your crying, It'll be alright...."
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Just stop your crying
It's a sign of the times
Welcome to the final show
Hope you're wearing your best clothes
You can't bribe the door on your way to the sky
You look pretty good down here
But you ain't really good
If we never learn, we been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets?
The bullets
We never learn, we been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets?
The bullets
Just stop your crying
It's a sign of the times
We gotta get away from here
We gotta get away from here
Just stop your crying
It'll be alright
They told me that the end is near
We gotta get away from here
Just stop your crying
Have the time of your life
Breaking through the atmosphere
And things are pretty good from here
Remember everything will be alright
We can meet again somewhere
Somewhere far away from here
We never learn, we been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets?
The bullets
We never learn, we been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets?
The bullets
Just stop your crying
It's a sign of the times
We gotta get away from here
We gotta get away from here
Stop your crying
Baby, it'll be alright
They told me that the end is near
We gotta get away from here
We never learn, we been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets?
The bullets
We never learn, we been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets?
The bullets
We don't talk enough
We should open up
Before it's all too much
Will we ever learn?
We've been here before
It's just what we know
Stop your crying, baby
It's a sign of the times
We gotta get away
We got to get away
We got to get away
We got to get away
We got to get away
We got to, we got to, away
We got to, we got to, away
We got to, we got to, away...
Year After Year
PERSONAL UPDATE
Baby,
I wish you were here.
I wish I was there with you.
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from hell?
Blue skies from pain?
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
Did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange
A walk-on part in the war
For a leading role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl
Year after year
Running over the same old ground
What have we found?
The same old fears
I wish you were here...
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Just A Whisper of Smoke
“The missing comes in waves, some more intense than others.
I miss how he’d watch the morning news while I ate breakfast.
I miss crying on his shoulder, talking his ears off,
being the first person to hear about his good days and the first to embrace him on his bad ones.
I miss the small things more than the big things because the small things proved he was mine.”
― Caroline George, Dearest Josephine
Hello Beautiful World!
After listening to this beautiful song, Dancing With Your Ghost, I decided to write these words
and dedicate them to the fear, the fear of ever losing my love. Yes, many times I have shed
a tear when I become overwhelmed with the sadness and the fear that one day I will look into his eyes
for the last time. That I will no longer hear again his I love you's. And that no longer will I feel his
warm caresses. I am sure this is not healthy thinking but I can't help it and I wonder if there are other
people that might feel the same way as I do. I believe this fear of loss is the consequence of one day
suddenly losing my mother. One day she was full of life and we were talking and laughing together
and the next day she was gone.
While this is a fear that I can't control, I try to use it in a positive way and that is that I don't take
for granted a single second I get to spend with my Steppenwolf. Every second with him is precious.
We try not to let our love go wasted on arguments, jealousy, or mistrust. When we do come to a bump in
our relationship, we overcome it together and move on because together we are strong, and our love
has always been stronger than anything we have ever been confronted with in all of our eleven
years together.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, I know this, and that is why I love this man every day as if it's
the last. We tell each other how much we love each other at least twenty times a day. And you know
what? I never get tired of hearing it or saying it to him. I always make sure he knows how proud I am
of him and how wonderful he is. And he does the same for me. This is a beautiful way of celebrating
love.
In life, when it comes to love we have two choices, either to waste it as I said before on arguments,
jealousy, or mistrust and make each other miserable and ruin what could be a beautiful relationship.
Or truly accepting love for what it really is, and that is the most beautiful feeling that two people
can share, filling each other's life with happiness that makes us feel like we are walking on clouds.
I understand that some relationships are just impossible to survive because many negative factors come
into play. Things that are really out of our hands like infidelity and abuse and so on from our partners.
But when you have a good man/woman by your side and still you insist on seeing ghosts where there
are none. Not being able to control those nasty feelings of jealousy, possessiveness, insecurities, and
mistrust and these feelings are being used as ammunition targeting your partner, then maybe feeling the
fear of losing your loved one is not such a bad thing. Also, we must keep in mind that there are no
perfect couples that are in bliss 100% of the time. Or the perfect man or woman, we all make mistakes
and have our own faults. It is recognizing what we have and valuing it with the respect it deserves.
Thanks For Reading!
Much love,
Lori Novo
❤
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